Christmas Time Blues

I cannot believe that Christmas Eve is tomorrow.  This year flew by. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happy about that.  This year has been such a roller coaster for us...3 deaths in 3 months, a lay off, a long distance relationship for 6 months, a new puppy, another new job and now an apartment. I'm glad life is starting to look up for us..for now at least.  Every year around this time things seem to go great and then in January we're hit with something.  I'm hoping that new year, new home, new puppy, new(ish) job for Mac that it's what we need for things to keep going in the right direction.  I'd also be lying if I didn't say that I keep waiting for something to happen. I'm a pessimistic person by nature I can't help it.  

As hard as I'm trying, I'm just not in the Christmas spirit at all. I want to be.  I listen to Christmas music for hours on end, I bought some presents for family and even dressed festive in a red sweater for our Christmas luncheon yesterday. It's not working. I didn't even decorate this year. I bought stockings and they're laying on the counter in the kitchen. I think next year I need to save at least one weeks vacation for the last week in December. Even if I don't get Christmas Eve off, I need time to relax and be able to enjoy time with my family. Not worry about getting home too late because I have work the next day. I want to sit home, drink hot chocolate and watch endless movies with Mac & Sir.  I think after we leave my dads tomorrow, we're going to look at Christmas lights and then come home and watch Christmas movies.  Sunday we won't be doing much. We're actually going to try and get the new apartment ready to paint and start moving stuff in.

Call me a scrooge, but I'm ready for December 26.

Let's go back a few years when I wasn't a scrooge and who doesn't love NYC in the Winter?. Enjoy the old pics :)