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So I had a very crummy day at work. Future Hubby went back to work this morning (he works in PA, we live in NJ, he comes home 2 days a week), so I was sad about that, then they added MORE things for me to do at work and then I had to take the lovely bus home. So when I got home at 9:15, walked upstairs with my Popeyes (diet fail!) and mail and saw my package from Kohls. I went in and immediately ripped open the package and found my dress and shoes inside. So naturally I did what any 26 year old would do and played dress up.

Sorry for the messy background, but focus on the pretty dress and not the towels that someone doesn't know how to hang up..

my new Candies shoes. I love them and right now they seem comfortable.

Now I just need to find the perfect accessories. Any website suggestions for inexpensive & pretty jewelry?

What I'm loving Wednesdays

I'm loving that the future hubby & I were able to have a date night yesterday. We went out to lunch, went and got yummy foods & then we went & saw Harry Potter.

I'm loving that there's only 38 days until my vacation...even if I have no plans of going anywhere.

I'm loving this dress I bought for an upcoming wedding:

(now just need shoes!)

I'm loving this man & how we matched yesterday during our day out...we're not that couple that dresses alike on purpose...it just happens.

What are you loving? Join up with Jamie and tell her what you're loving

6 Year Anniversary

Mac & I met July 16th 2005 at a bowling alley.  I was with my friend Krystina, and Mac was with our friend Fred.  At first glance I thought he was cute, but didn't think anything of it since I was still kind of wanting to be with my on again/off again boyfriend or whatever he was.  So the 4 of us decided on KFC for dinner. I wound up paying for everyone that night somehow. After dinner we went to the liquor and then back to Fred's house to drink and play truth or dare & darts. After drinking a bit, I went to the window for some cool air and mac came and sat by me and we talked about different things. Fast forward a few hours and we were in Fred's kitchen making out.  Krystina didn't feel well so she left and I decided to stay behind and have Fred take me home the next day.  Fred went to bed and we kept talking. 7 am comes around and his mom calls him. He has to leave to bring her to church...so I decided to go with him. Left my purse at Fred's, so he knew I was coming back. It was pretty awkward meeting his mom 12 hours after meeting him. So after that we hung out at his place and then went back to Freds.  Later we exchanged #'s and AOL screennames.  We talked online a lot and decided that we'd go on a real date where he paid. July 30th was our official date.  We went to see Stealth at the theatre, went to Quick Chek for sandwiches and then went to West New York, NJ to walk and see the skyline (told him my dream date was dinner, movie & a walk on the beach so he did the best he could to make it happen). We've been together pretty much ever since.  He told me loved me several weeks after we started dating, I said it back several weeks after that. We got engaged 12/25/2006 in my bedroom of my old apartment at 2am while I was wrapping presents. Was it how I thought I'd be proposed to? Absolutely not. Would I change it? No. Our relationship is NO where near perfect, but despite our nasty & mean fights, we love each other and  want to spend our lives together and have children.  We've gone through a lot together.  Death, loss of jobs, money issues, depression. If we can make it through all that (and that's just in the last 6 months!) we can make it through anything

Unfortunately we won't be together to celebrate due to him working in Pennsylvania, but we'll make up for it.  So here is a look at some of our 6 years together.  (One thing I notice is that I'm almost always on the left in pics!)

 (first pic ever)

 most recent pic (I swear he was happy here!!)

 (last years anniversary photo)

 (anniversary pic take 2)

 (one of our engagement pics)

 (may be one of my favorite pics despite my paleness)

(i took a few month hiatus, but I'm hoping to start back up here!)

Ten Days

Ok so I claimed I was done with blogging, but maybe I'll keep going for a little while longer. 



Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

1.  I miss you and the way our friendship was in high school.  Nights spent over each other house, random trips to the Jersey Shore.  I know you had a baby 8 months ago, but you need to find time for your friends.  Bring the baby with you I'd love to meet her. I always tell myself that the friendship is done with, but I don't want to give up on it yet.  We've been friends for 12(!!) years..that's not something to just throw away because you have a family. 
2. I'm mad that you wouldn't put your studying aside for a few hours to come out with me for my birthday.  If you could go to dinner with me, you could certainly do male revue. They both take around the same amount of time!
3. Leave him!  He beats you.  You need to get out of that relationship.  I know you have two kids with him, but it's all the more reason to do it.  One of these days you or the babies are going to get really hurt.  I may not be friends with you, but I care.
4. I think about you everyday since you've been gone.  Days will turn into years before I know it.  I love you and am so glad I had you in my life for 16 years..even if I did pour ice on your head at the movies..I'm going to visit your family this Summer..it's going to be weird, but please let me know somehow,someway that you're with me
5. You are by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I know we fight and say mean things, but I love you...always & forever
6. You're a mean woman.  I wish you were different. I feel bad for not visiting or calling as much but I can't help it.  Last years visit was probably my last.
7. I regret you.
8. You need to move back this way.  I miss having you in my life everyday, but I don't want to live with you.  It'll ruin what we have.
9. Leave her so we can move in.
10. You were the greatest pop around.  Thanks to you I have an addiction for stationary and will check random machines for change.  I cannot believe you've been gone 12 years.  I miss you everyday.  Come visit me or send me a sign that you're around!

Goodbye!

I think I'm giving up writing at Blogger.  I hate writing for "myself" and not a lot of people are interested so I'll probably just  go back to opendiary.com where I've been writing for the last 6 years. I've definitely found a lot of blogs that I like reading so I'll probably keep that up and I will try to keep noting..

Goodbye for now

Gone yet not forgotten,
Although we are apart,
Your spirit lives within me,
Forever in my heart.
Rest in Peace Bri...we'll meet again one day. ♥

Tonight I said goodbye for now to Brian. It was a great turn out and a lovely funeral.

I just can't believe he's really gone. It was over two years since I saw him but we kept in touch til a few months back when he got really sick and stopped texting me. His mom said he used to give her updates on me.

I haven't cried since the day they thought he wouldn't make it through the night. I feel heartless.

I miss him and wish I could of had him in my life just a little longer. (I know he's in a better place but that doesn't make it easier)

I told him tonight while I was kneeling by his casket to give me a sign that he's still around.

Rest in the sweetest peace Brian A. Schantz 10.23.85-01.27.11. It's only goodbye for now...

(sorry for being a bad noter lately)

I love days like this

To get out of the house Mac & I went to KFC and the bank.  Afterwards we came to our local Borders book store for free magazines, wi-fi and some drinks. It's semi-cheap and pretty relaxing (which isn't something we've been able to do much of in the last few weeks).

I'm still sick with an upper respiratory infection, but I hope to be better by the weekend.  I'm starting to feel better and not having to take sudafed as much as I was before.  

Brian's wake & funeral is Saturday.  I'm really not looking forward to going, but he was one of my best friends so I owe it to him to go.  Mac's coming and I think my dad and his wife are going to come with us. As much as I don't like my dad's wife, she was always nice to Brian.  Brian was a Spice Girl lover (he closet in his old room was FILLED with different Spice Girls things),and my step-mom would always bring him stuff from London if they were on a cover of a magazine or whatever.  So that means a lot that they'd both go to it to say goodbye and support me.

I haven't heard any details about the girl from work who passed away.  I'm not sure if I'll go to the funeral.If my whole company goes, I'll go.

I'm praying these are the last two funerals I'll have to go to for a long, long time.

I'm thankful it's February..hopefully it'll be MUCH better than January.

I swear my posts won't always be this negative...