Goodbye!

I think I'm giving up writing at Blogger.  I hate writing for "myself" and not a lot of people are interested so I'll probably just  go back to opendiary.com where I've been writing for the last 6 years. I've definitely found a lot of blogs that I like reading so I'll probably keep that up and I will try to keep noting..

Goodbye for now

Gone yet not forgotten,
Although we are apart,
Your spirit lives within me,
Forever in my heart.
Rest in Peace Bri...we'll meet again one day. ♥

Tonight I said goodbye for now to Brian. It was a great turn out and a lovely funeral.

I just can't believe he's really gone. It was over two years since I saw him but we kept in touch til a few months back when he got really sick and stopped texting me. His mom said he used to give her updates on me.

I haven't cried since the day they thought he wouldn't make it through the night. I feel heartless.

I miss him and wish I could of had him in my life just a little longer. (I know he's in a better place but that doesn't make it easier)

I told him tonight while I was kneeling by his casket to give me a sign that he's still around.

Rest in the sweetest peace Brian A. Schantz 10.23.85-01.27.11. It's only goodbye for now...

(sorry for being a bad noter lately)

I love days like this

To get out of the house Mac & I went to KFC and the bank.  Afterwards we came to our local Borders book store for free magazines, wi-fi and some drinks. It's semi-cheap and pretty relaxing (which isn't something we've been able to do much of in the last few weeks).

I'm still sick with an upper respiratory infection, but I hope to be better by the weekend.  I'm starting to feel better and not having to take sudafed as much as I was before.  

Brian's wake & funeral is Saturday.  I'm really not looking forward to going, but he was one of my best friends so I owe it to him to go.  Mac's coming and I think my dad and his wife are going to come with us. As much as I don't like my dad's wife, she was always nice to Brian.  Brian was a Spice Girl lover (he closet in his old room was FILLED with different Spice Girls things),and my step-mom would always bring him stuff from London if they were on a cover of a magazine or whatever.  So that means a lot that they'd both go to it to say goodbye and support me.

I haven't heard any details about the girl from work who passed away.  I'm not sure if I'll go to the funeral.If my whole company goes, I'll go.

I'm praying these are the last two funerals I'll have to go to for a long, long time.

I'm thankful it's February..hopefully it'll be MUCH better than January.

I swear my posts won't always be this negative...